“Do the right thing”
I am going to save all the money I can (apart from increasing my monthly bills by adding cable) so that I will have enough for my plane ticket. I will cut corners everywhere. I will not spend a dime (unless it’s on food). I am an adult. That means acting and being fiscally responsible. I will go back to being a penny pincher and try to recoup the 1,000$ I had to shell out of my savings on medication. I will need money for my move. I want to do big things in the next year so…
I am also going to stop being afraid of my family’s reactions. Call my dad up when I need his tax returns. Take the abuse and the insults and the reminders that I am inferior to his other kids and that I am not the daughter he wanted me to be. I will not take this money that he “promised” (I wonder if he was actually going to give me money for once!) and deal with what comes with this rejection.
Most importantly, I will let those around me drown. I am tired of extending a hand, getting them out of the water only to see them jump right into it again. They are on their own now. They’ll either sink or swim but that’s their business. Cause if I keep doing this, one day they’ll drag me right along with them into the waters, and who’ll be there to save me?
