Can’t wait for January 1st!
Ever since I got my green card in 2007, I have been writing a list of all the things I want to have and change in the upcoming year. I see each year as a fresh start and try to let go of all the awfulness that happened in the past. I re-read the letters I wrote to my self for 2008 and 2009 and I see that I have not followed the plans I had set to myself.
I hope to change that for 2010. Some of the things on my list include: learning to be alone, becoming more confident in my abilities/looks and leaving love (or like) for another year to stay focused on my plans. I also plan to chop off my hair and going natural but I’ll see about that in a few months lol.
I hope that I have the balls (or whatever it is for women) to stick to my guns and not run away. I am a very indecisive person and that needs to change. I let people talk me into things or talk me out of my decisions and I always end up regretting listening to them. My main goal for this year is not to listen to anyone if my gut is screaming ”NOOOOO.” Until I can do that, I feel that I will never be my own woman. And no more sex (well at least with new people). I have learned that because I lack confidence, dating=loss of focus.
Well, this is my shortened version of my list. I really hope that 2010 will be even better than 2009.
