February 2010
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Toxicity
After my episode with Brandon in 2008-09, I’ve been looking at the type of people I’ve had around me. Those friendships I cultivated as well as the relationships I have in my family. I’ve come to realize that many of those friends were toxic. They were tearing me down in such subtle ways. I’ve come to the conclusion that I attract these people. People that use me for all...
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It’s like I don’t care abou the future anymore. I still don’t know what i want to do in life… Well, I do. I just have a lot of self doubt. I want to do research. Medical to be more exact. Do graduate work in virology and maybe get a Ph D in genetics. I’m really torn though. I want to focus on viruses more than anything. Maybe we could finally cure them or, really,...
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With my future more and more uncertain, I am regressing. I have been avoiding my boyfriend like the plague. I don’t want to talk to him. I’m already so attached. WHat happens when I leave? I don’t want to have to feel that pain. I want to make a clean break. He is clouding my judgement, my logic. I know that when I leave, it’ll feel like someone reached into my chest and...